One of my personal goals during this lockdown was to read/get through at least 3 books. I’ve listened to 17 books via audible in 2 months and on my and started my 18th last night… This way I’ve been able to immerse myself in stories while doing other things I enjoy like redecorating, baking and gaming – yeah I’m happy 😍
I hope everyone else has been able to find the positive in this negative situation.😄
I’ve always struggled to take care of myself and make sure I have ‘me’ time. But after years of low self-esteem, toxic encounters, severe depression and anxiety and what feels like multiple lifetimes worth of hard decisions, I’m now at a point in my life where I really like myself and I like my own company which is something I wasn’t raised to feel like. 😔
I’m a strong, independent, creative, smart, beautiful and ambitious woman and mother. (in my own way) That’s right I’ve said it and for once I believe it 😅 and that’s saying something. I love me and it feels amazing to feel this way.
I try to be a positive influence for my kids and I hope they forever feel loved and cared for as that’s something I’ve not felt growing up or even as an adult. It’s something I’ve had to build up in myself to me from me.😅
With everything I’ve seen, heard and gone through I’ve realised I had become a hurt, angry, stubborn, jealous, defensive person who could be a little judgemental without realising it- all things I hated about myself. I’ve been working on myself over the years though and I’m getting better mentally and emotionally hence the love I’ve gained getting to know my true self – the positive me. 😊
I’ll keep improving and becoming the best version of me I can be for myself and my kids. I hope I can continue to check off my goals as well. 😄
Anyway just thought I’d share my good mood and thoughts as it’s a rare thing for me xx 💖 xx