Death come swiftly…

That’s how I felt recently! I haven’t been very well… Last week I had multiple cold/flu like symptoms every day that passed I gained a different symptom feeling more and more worse and then just as I felt back to normal again I ended up with a constant migraine that went on for three days straight!

The pain was excruciating! The pain itself made me feel nauseous and I struggled to do anything, I couldn’t think clearly, I could barely get around and my head felt like it had been kicked in with a golf club! (Or at least felt like that would be what it would feel like if I had been!)

I had to take myself to the doctors surgery… I only do that if it’s really bad and I can’t function to the point where I am struggling and since I am a single parent with no help or support I needed to find out why I felt this way and if there is something I can do to stop it because I just felt like I’d rather die than go on with that pain! – When you have kids and you feel like that you know it’s really bad!

Thing is it made it worse with the nausea as I have a phobia of being sick. I’m not one of those people who throw up once and feel so much better and get on with the day… When I throw up I don’t stop and it can go on for the rest of the day or more! And Even when I throw up once all my blood vessels in my face pop and burst! 

Anyway I managed to get a doctors appointment for myself and my daughter as she had thrown up that morning and had suffered from a cough all week. We were waiting quite awhile which I guess being a same day appointment where they squeeze you in when they can is to be expected and that was fine but half the waiting room had been cut of as works was being done to it… and it just so happened to be the kids play side so there was nothing to entertain the kids…

So While I cradled my head in my hands and tried very hard not to cry out in pain! I also had to keep telling my daughter to stop climbing on every chair, standing on them,  being loud and wondering around poking her head through the sliding door to the work area…. Everyone could see I wasn’t in a good way but I also knew others weren’t well themselves and I did try to get her to stop… But she is three and she is going through that attitude teenager wannabe phase! 

I got called in and saw a nurse and after she did a few tests and checks she told me she was concerned and wanted me to see the doctor to get a second opinion… I did start to panic… And not because of what might be wrong. but more of what if I get sent to hospital? What is gonna happen to my kids!?

I had to go back into the waiting room for a doctor to see me but the nurse did give me a glass of water to drink which was appreciated as I started to overheat and feel quite dizzy. Turns out my daughter is clear and sounded fine and it must have been an infection she had the week before which she is now gotten over but apparently she has a small heart murmur which they want to double check in two weeks time.

When I saw the doctor he did similar tests and checked me over and it turns out I might have been suffering from a sinus headache the past three days…. I got prescribed some Co-Dydramol and a nasal spray. – The Nurofen Ibuprofen gel tablets I usually take when I get a migraine hadn’t eased my pain at all the past three days.

Here’s a ‘fun’ fact you don’t know about me: for as long as I can remember my right nostril has never worked in my life. Like I can’t smell, sniff, breath or blow with my right nostril at all and I have never known why and every time I have told a doctor or surgeon about it no one has looked into it until this time when the doctor actually finally looked up my nose… Normally I would feel a bit embarrassed but I had lost my tether and wanted to know why!

He asked me to blow hard out of it while blocking my left nostril… Nothing as I had previously stated so he looked and told me it seems I have a deviated septum! Now I know! Finally! I asked if he knew why I have a deviated septum to which he told me it’s just the way my septum had developed in a wonky way before I was born… Well that’s something I never knew nor my own parents!

Now I know I’m okay with it.I’m not gonna go down the surgery route and have it fixed because what’s the point? I gone through my life with it this way and I’m okay with it and I will only do myself more damage if I had surgery. Anyway after going home and taking my new painkillers I felt it ease slightly and I was so relieved!

The nest day I felt even better and was able to go and play with the kids in the snow! And today I still feel so much better than I did the other day and I haven’t taken any painkillers today. I don’t take them unless I can’t take the pain.

Now I finally feel well enough and pain free to be able to look at my laptop screen and start writing again but there has been so much since the last time I writ and even then I was saying I had lots to write… Why does this always happen to me!? I want to remember everything but my mind has been so cloudy and keeps blanking on me these days…

Anyway thanks for reading 🙂

x Emz x


Author: Emz

I'm a 28, ambitious full time mum of two amazing and funny children. I try to live a happy simple life but of course there can be drama even if do try to avoid it. A lot does go on with Family and friends and I try to blog as often as I can because this is a good way for me to write what I'm thinking, feeling and helps me remember things that go on and writing it down on a piece of paper doesn't do myself any justice I need to be honest with myself and if blogging is the way forward for me then so bit it. If you happen to come across my blog and actually like and follow it thank you very much. :D I have had to make strong and hard decisions in my life and I have come out stronger and wiser every time. I'm shy, opinionated and can be socially awkward at times but I am trying to build up my confidence and I just want to share with you my life story if you are willing to listen and I am only too happy to do the same for anyone else who wants me to know :) I try to be as honest, open and kind as I can in life. - My aim is to Blog every day whether I am able to keep up with that well we shall see :)

3 thoughts on “Death come swiftly…”

    1. Aww thanks so much! Yeah I feel a lot better than the other day. Although my mind is still a bit doolally at the moment- a lot more walking in and out of the same room remembering and forgetting what I am supposed to be doing… Which is tolerable on a weekend I just hope it starts functioning properly on Monday when I go back to college! xx

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  1. Hope you get better soon. I can identify with part of your problem because I had a deviated septum too. I had it operated on a few years ago. It hurt a lot for a while but reduced my snoring!

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