A Baffling Experience *part 2*

***Warning: What you are about to read are true events that actually transpired over the days it specifies and in no way untrue. I will apologise for the length of this post but be warned it may be painful to read in terms of how boring or frustrating the conversations may be  at times.  You may wish to bang your own head against a wall with how painfully  moronic  and draining some responses were… I would know as I felt like that trying to get through the responses myself… Hang in there and you may see for yourself how baffling some people can actually be***


Part 2: A Lot Can Change In 10 Years

So it continues with him responding…

16/1/18

‘J S’ -12:54pm- “That don’t mean nothing don’t u then x”

(First of all multiple negatives? Secondly, What does that even mean? Of course it means something! You can’t like someone after 10 years when that person isn’t the same person and you haven’t known them, spoken or seen in years ya know?)

Me -12:54pm- “What do you mean that means nothing?”

(I mean am I the only one who thinks like this? Surely not.)

‘J S’ -12:55pm- “Doesn’t matter if we haven’t seen each other or not x”

(It does if we haven’t spoken and don’t know each other anymore right?)

Me -12:56pm- “Or spoken or know the people we are now?”

(We don’t know each other anymore. You can’t say you like me when you don’t know me. You’ll have to get to know me to find out if I am the kind of person you do like… Which is unlikely.)

‘J S’ -12:56pm- “OK if you don’t feel like that then forget I said anything”

(Oh do get over it! understand what I am saying and stop making assumption before knowing anything…)

Me -12:57pm- “What are you on about? o.O”

(Why are you being like that all of a sudden all I stated was the obvious.)

‘J S’-12:57pm- “Dw”

(Wow… This right here show’s you’re the same…)

Me -12:58pm- “So you don’t understand what I’m saying?”

(I’m not being confusing am I? I thought I was being quite clear and simple.)

‘J S’ -12:59pm- “Yes but if you like someone it does go because you have no contact u just don’t think about it as much”

(Okay now I have no idea what you just said… Anyone?)

‘J S’-1:25pm- “?”

(A question mark? Why do you keep sending “?” you didn’t ask a question and there is need to do that just because I haven’t responded straight away…)

‘J S’ -1:50pm- “?”

(Really!? Just stop….I’m obviously busy with my child and I haven’t had a chance to either read or respond so just have some patience…)

Me -1:52pm- “Sorry got a little busy.. Are you the same person you were back then? x”

(Simple question. Please understand what I have asked….)

‘J S’ -1:54pm- “I’m more grown up but still myself x”

(Huh? Can you grow up but be the same person? Not in my experience… Unless you mean you are physically grown up but mentally and emotionally still the same teenage boy that I met…But having 3 children at this point in your life can you still be the same?)

Me -1:58pm- “What does that mean? x”

(Trying to understand…)

‘J S’ -2:06pm- “I’m still me but in a good way”

(Yeah I’m not buying it…I didn’t like him much back then apart from onetime but then his true colours came through so how could you being you – the you back then but in the you now body be a good thing? Does anyone know what I mean? Or have I lost you now?)

Me -2:12pm- “And who are you? How would you describe yourself? x”

(Asking “who are you?” might be a broad question but I just want to make a point and also to know how he would describe himself to help me know what kind of a person he is…)

‘J S’ -2:12pm- “A caring person x”

(“A caring person”- I’m sorry but that made me laugh… He wasn’t much of a caring person back then so how could he be now if he is supposed to be the same? Also… Is that all he is?no other descriptions? Hmmm….)

Me -2:16pm- “Just a caring person? That’s who you are?”

(Is it possible to be just one thing? To have just one characteristic? Should I believe him? Because I don’t…)

‘J S’ -2:17pm- “Y lol”

(“Y”? Because Surely you are more than just “a caring person” not that I believe that that’s who you are…)

Me -2:19pm- “Why not? I thought it would be a good idea x”

(How about your own words being used against you! Ha! It’s a good thing my friend is on the phone to me as I am going through this otherwise I wouldn’t have see the funny side of things and instead of laughing I would be getting angry and confrontational…)

‘J S’ -2:19pm- “Thought what would be a good idea x”

(Oh my… Not sure how long I can go like this without holding my tongue.)

Me -2:20pm- “To ask you who you are x”

(Come on…Get with the program!)

‘J S’ -2:20pm- “Who are you then x”

(So you’re not even going to answer it yourself properly? I am more than one thing but too much to write it all down on these instant messengers on a social media… But don’t you already know that?)

Me -2:23pm- “Who do you think I am? After all these years you say that you like me but who am I? I’m curious…I’m trying to understand why x”

(I mean, What do you like about me? What kind of person am I that you apparently seem to like? I want to know… Surely you have reason to why you like someone… Everyone does… right?)

‘J S’ -2:26pm- “Y are trying to understand tell me who you are then x”

(Oh My God!!! Just answer the damn question you idiot! Stop asking why and explain yourself. Why wouldn’t I want to understand what you mean or what you think? So annoying!)

Me -2:27pm- “You didn’t even answer question lol x”

(Throw in a “lol” so not to seem annoyed or aggressive even though what I want it do is smack the answers out of him… Ah… Now I remember how he use to affect me… He made me feel aggressive with the way he use to say things to me and react etc…)

‘J S’ -2:28pm- “Which one x”

(Don’t be stupid…. Read through our messages and find the questions you never answered… Is it that hard?- Stay calm….)

Me -2:28pm- “^”

(Can you follow the little arrow pointing up? That means the question you haven’t answered is above… I’ts a good thing my friend is helping me answer these messages because I would be telling him he’s an idiot….)

‘J S’ -2:28pm- “I just like u x”

(…………………………………………..Seriously!!!!!!!!!? Anyone else understand?)

Me -2:29pm- “So no reason? x”

(You really are a waste of my time aren’t you? Just when I am sane again you make me go insane with the way you are coming across and maybe I am the only person being affected this way but I can’t help it… Maybe it’s a wave of suppression over the years and he has managed to let it burst through… Who knows… And what I mean by suppression I mean he pissed me off so much over the years and I let it slide and buried the aggression and now I am more open and honest with myself and my thoughts and feelings that he has easily opened the gates and it will be too strong for him to handle So I am really trying to keep calm with my messages.)

‘J S’ -2:34pm- “Jus u x”

(What do you mean?? You don’t know me! You can like all of me if you don’t know all of me… We have history that no longer fit’s into the now since we are different from then… Well I am at least…)

Me -2:40pm- “Look, I’m fine with us getting to know the people we are now but you have to know and understand that we aren’t the same people we were back then, a lot has changed… I imagine surely we both would have changed as it has been 13 years since we first met x”

(How clearer do I need to be? I am me and you are you but neither of us know who the other is… So yes If he stops being idiotic I would like to get to know the person he has grown to be and let him get to know the person I have grown to be myself… But you have to actually try to get to know me to get to know me….)

‘J S’ -2:41pm- “Yes I agree x”

(Finally! Hallelujah He understood and agreed! An I need to go on the school run….)

‘J S’ -3:15pm- “So where is my cuddle x”

(Back to this again are we? Did you not understand what I said at the beginning? You have to earn a cuddle before you deserve and get a cuddle… That’s just who I am and I have always been that way when It came to physical contact….)

I know I know I was a bit aggressive, touchy and maybe even mean thinking he was such names but I couldn’t help it… That’s what I thought. That’s how I felt and at least I didn’t say it to him to be a nasty ass person… I try not to be but I can’t help thinking what I think only what I say….. 

I’m sure there are plenty of people out there that wouldn’t have taken it the way I had and would have been nicer about it and well I commend you for that and if that makes you a better person at socialising then I will agree with you As I have never been good at socialising…

I have given him the benefit of the doubt and also giving a  chance for us both to get  to know one another but that whole cuddling thing is getting old… I have had worse offers but lets just try to see if we can get to know each other shall we?

Thoughts and answers anyone? Did you know where I was coming from? What about him?Did you understand everything he was saying ? There is more to come and you will want to read what happened next…

More on “A Baffling Experience” next time….

Thanks so much for reading.

x Emz x

Author: Emz

I'm a 28, ambitious full time mum of two amazing and funny children. I try to live a happy simple life but of course there can be drama even if do try to avoid it. A lot does go on with Family and friends and I try to blog as often as I can because this is a good way for me to write what I'm thinking, feeling and helps me remember things that go on and writing it down on a piece of paper doesn't do myself any justice I need to be honest with myself and if blogging is the way forward for me then so bit it. If you happen to come across my blog and actually like and follow it thank you very much. :D I have had to make strong and hard decisions in my life and I have come out stronger and wiser every time. I'm shy, opinionated and can be socially awkward at times but I am trying to build up my confidence and I just want to share with you my life story if you are willing to listen and I am only too happy to do the same for anyone else who wants me to know :) I try to be as honest, open and kind as I can in life. - My aim is to Blog every day whether I am able to keep up with that well we shall see :)

3 thoughts on “A Baffling Experience *part 2*”

  1. I can’t offer much in the way of thoughts and answers, except to say that I think your reactions to the situation are adult and sensible! All the best.

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