And as I sit here on the sofa, film on in the background, kids in another room engrossed in their own film and waiting for our burger king to be delivered. (We have no food in and I don’t want to go out in the rain) The little one running up and down the stairs seeing what I am doing (which isn’t much) every so often… I know full well that I should be doing a lot of things… I know I should be tidying. I know I should be washing up. I know I should be doing the laundry. I know I should be dressed. I know I should be sorting the bedrooms out. I know I should be getting on with finishing up my posts that have yet to be edited and published.
But it’s Sunday. It’s my day to just try and relax and prepare myself for the coming week. Another day at college. Another week of school and nursery runs. Another week to try and get the housework done. Another week of parenting two young children who frustrate me to my wits end but also make me laugh and feel proud to have been able to raise them into the children they are so far…
I love my kids but my gosh don’t they know how to wind me up the wall…. And I only have myself to blame!Not only are they mini versions of myself but they are at that age where they know how to wind each other up and are constantly arguing and fighting and I have to separate them but then they find away to annoy each other just by looking at one another! (As I write this I have just been interrupted with them both running upstairs and one of them is crying and the other telling me their version of what has happened….)
On a daily basis I have to shout “Get Your shoes on!” at the very least 10 times in 3-5 minutes to my three old daughter and I will start of nice and calm; “Can you get your shoes on for mummy please?” and she responds with “Okay mummy” and a big happy smile… But does she do it?… No…. Why? It seems she get’s distracted by finding her stickers instead or she starts to day dream and forgets what she is supposed to be doing. (Okay that she gets from me.)
My 8 year old son is a lot better at getting himself ready but it’s other things that I ask him to get he seems to hear something other than what I have asked for. I am at a loss who to believe when it comes to when my kids say they are hurt by the other and crying about it and the other is defending themselves with a story. I have no clue who to believe as I have recently learned they both have gotten into a phase of making up stories and pretending the other did something they shouldn’t… I do hope they snap out of it… For my own sanity!
I am going to go back to eating healthy and working out in February as I have so much to do at home I just don’t have the time to go to the gym yet and my physical motivation for it just isn’t there so I will need to kick my bum into gear the next couple of weeks. My personal training sessions will start form February 6th but I will be telling my personal trainer that I want to do less squats and lunges and that the home workout program she gave me to do over the Christmas holidays just wasn’t for me…
All those different lunges and squats killed me half way through! I hardly had the space and it made me hate working out and that’s not what you want or need when it comes to exercising and getting fit…You want to enjoy the workout so it keeps encouraging you to keep going and even push yourself but in a happy and positive way and I have felt that before in other home workout programs that were free! So I will be going back to that…
But I do like my personal trainer and she does encourage me and keeps me going when I go to the gym but she wont be happy when I tell her I didn’t do any exercise over the holidays, I didn’t like her home program and I now have a pudding belly from all the creme brulees, cakes and cheesecakes I have scoffed since our last session! (Sorry but it was Christmas and I was not prepared to give up on desserts!)
I did very well though! From beginning of September to half way through December I did not have any fizzies, fast food, take away, junk food/munchies and drank more water (should have drank more water though) not to mention I went to the gym 3 times a week (apart from half terms) and had a personal training session on one of those times a week, rid a bike on the school runs and tried to keep to the nutrition plan my personal trainer gave me….And it was hard but I did it… And I know I can do it again but even better!
I’m going to try and do two toning challenges – Abs and Butt lift! Let’s see how far I can make it and see if there are any changes to my wobbly mum bum and non existent abs that are hidden beneath this “muffin top”as they call it haha. I am still in the same frame of mind as in I don’t care about the weight side of things just more on toning the wobbly bits in so I can run and not feel everything wobble through me!
I am also looking into driving lessons (again) I have not learned before but I can never find anyone available for my area which seems silly considering I am central! I also would like to take up pottery lessons and possibly dance classes but will have to be during the day while the kids are at school and nursery.
I have been looking at holidays to take for either my birthday or new years. (I know I know It’s a bit far off but I need to know how much I would need so I can start saving.) I just really want to get away from here… Nothing is really here for me and the kids anymore… I just don’t want to take the kids out of their nursery and school as they are really good and they both have friends and I know what it’s like to move out of school to another but I don’t know what it is like to move out of this city and I feel that it is time.
Oh and I have also decided what I want to do with my life! Which for me is a big deal since I have struggled to figure out since before I became a mother! But I am also quite ambitious and that isn’t always a good thing when you have to be realistic in life.
We have finished eating, the kids are back to watching what they were watching and I am still sat on the sofa with the movie channel on… It’s an alright day but if the place was sorted I would feel a lot more relaxed and content with my Sunday. I will have to try to focus on the living room before I go to bed tonight and then hope to focus on the kitchen throughout the week.
For all of those who have a spic and span clean and tidy home all the time… I commend you for that and I only hope I can keep up with mine when it is all done but you have to know that some of us just don’t have the clean gene or any type of OCD or the help from others who are around and after dealing with the kids or daily life you get home see it’s a mess you know you want it to be clean and tidy but you just don’t know where to start or if you can be bothered with no motivation or encouragement…
Not to mention every time I do get it amazingly clean and tidy it is ruined within minutes due to the kids and I can’t exactly keep them confined to their room to keep the place clean. For one, what kind of childhood is that? Two, I would rather spend time with my kids and playing with them instead of telling them to stay away and spending that time just tidying… And three, It’s just not worth it and although they do try to help bless them I get more frustrated with them or they do a little then give up and it makes me feel like doing the same… Vicious circle you guys!
I have my belated Christmas and new year party with my college class mates on 31st January,. It will be a 5 course meal with wine tasting at our college’s restaurant and we get a discount from our chef/teacher and a reservation… My brother has agreed to look after the kids for me as it begins at 6pm. Hopefully they will be really good for him and be settled and ready for bed when I leave. That way all he will need to do is watch a film with them. My brother did question whether I was coming back that night…. It’s a 5 course meal round the corner… Where else would I be going?
I doubt very much I’ll meet some drop dead gorgeous guy at my college restaurant also enjoying the event who then strikes up witty, smart and funny conversation with me, can’t take his eyes off me and wont want us to stop and say goodbye. And for me to then think hmm let’s go to your place or where ever you came from! firstly, life isn’t that kind to me haha and second I don’t think I could ever just go off with a guy I just met moments before and lose control like that… I think way too much into some things and I can easily talk myself out of stuff!
Anyway I told my brother that of course I would be coming back and I’m sure it wouldn’t be for more than 3 or 4 hours and that I’ll make him some baked goodies. Thus another reason to get my place sorted before he is round.
How is your Sunday going? Has anyone gotten up to much or is it pretty much a lazy rainy afternoon for you all too? Let me know 🙂
As always, thank you for reading! 🙂
x Emz x