Not usually… But we all are at some point, aren’t we? No matter how hard we try not to be, we don’t want to lower ourselves to their level. But It happens. We get pushed to that point. We stop in our tracks and think… Ya know what? I’m not playing your little games. I’m not doing things your way. For once I am in control of the situation that you have put me in and now you have unleashed a side you will be shocked to be up against with.
That’s me these past few days but not to everyone of course. Just the ones who have participated in the releasing this part of me I didn’t think would come through so to speak.
I’m trying to find the right words to use to explain myself… This thing with my sister… hmm… Is it because we are siblings and that’s what siblings do? Although we are both adults now and should have grown out of that and I thought we had although to be fair she is rather immature for her age at times and she uses the excuse of because she went through her teens pretending to act older for people to think she was older and now she is an adult she feels now is the time to act younger… yeah, like that makes sense… She doesn’t make sense most of the time so…
She winds me up being the way she is at times but then is the way she is an act itself? Because there are times that I can really go a few hours without her pissing me off so I dunno… But the things she says and does I mean, really? No common sense, low self respect for herself and others, makes very risky and unsafe choices at times that make me question her sanity- well I suppose that might be making it sound worse but it does make me question what goes through her brain and why… Her lifestyle I guess but I don’t like how she sees things and goes about them and yeah…
It does pain me to be going through this with her but she knew what she was doing, what was going to happen and what to do to push me… But it does kind of back up how I have been feeling the past few months and it is time to cut off what brings me down… Again. (Someone else knew what they were doing and faced the consequences of their words and actions- more than one.)
So… Here is hopefully the last of the sister text chronicles… (please) These two were sent today:
Sister: “is sorted yer” 4:21pm
(Again? Is she really still hounding me? This is my sister, she should know my Monday routines and knows what goes on as we have spoken about it loads before… I will sort it when I sort it… give me some damn space and patience… I have to have it with you when you are late all the time but yet you expect it all at the snap of your fingers… Well, na. It doesn’t work that way with me sis, I’m not one of your man slaves you’re so dependant on – oh look I’m being catty… Ah well… I was going to do it around that time but then you had to go and do that… Well you can wait now.)
Sister: “?” 5:35pm
(… What do you think a ? will do? You’re really just making it worse for yourself! Leave me alone… Leave me beee… Hound your man slaves not meee…. So now you have done it again you can wait longer now.)
That’s right, I waited till literally the end of the day, well I transferred it over around just gone 10pm and I am hoping because she is a new recipient and it is late, that it will take up to two hours like it says, so that she will get it just before midnight. So it will still be Monday (paid on the correct day she wanted) – long enough to make her think I wasn’t going to pay HA!
That’s the kind of mood I am with her right now. I want to wind her up because she wound me up. I paid the £85 today just because she said she borrowed money off someone to help pay for her ebay debt and I assume will need to pay them back… (I’m still being nice) But the rest of the 12th’s of this year will only be £40 every time and at the end of the day of each 12th hehe- my terms! (Not that she knows because I haven’t said a word to her since my last message.) Then next year will go back to paying £85 every 12th til that June and then on that July I will pay the last of it and then FREEDOM!
Maybe it will mess her up a bit maybe not… Either way, my terms. It’s Monday, She knows what I have to do on a Monday and yet she expected me to run to the bank first thing to deposit the money and then transfer it to her account… I had a School run, a Nursery run and a College run all before 9am! Then I was in college till 1:30pm. I only had an hour to go home, sit down and have something to eat. (Which luckily was what I made and bought home.) Then it was another School run and Nursery run and then I deposited the money into my bank… Then we got home for 4:30pm and was just having a rest after my day and watching Netflix with the kids and then I see the text…
So if me being the way I’m being with the payments, the texts and taking what she is doing and saying the way I have, it may be because I am being petty. But It’s okay though, because this is one battle I refuse to back down on… I made a promise and I am keeping to it, -which is I will pay my sister back… (except from last months because she didn’t turn up and didn’t contact me til 5 days later and then accused me of not bothering) But that doesn’t mean I have to stick to a set amount and date every time because she isn’t professional about it and it has forced me to not be professional either.
She doesn’t understand me or anything I have said and maybe me being this way is the only way for her to understand what the consequences are from her actions? Let that be that and lets get on with everything else that’s going on or will be going on in my life!
Those of you who have no clue what I am talking about check out my other posts so not to be too confused and be in the know of this situation If you want of course. 🙂
So yes I may be petty at the moment but towards my sister and it will pass… But at least I admitted it 😛 … How would you react? Maybe the same way? Maybe not?Maybe worse? Would you put up with it and stand your ground? I would like to know. 🙂
Thanks for reading and have a nice night/day 🙂
x Emz x