… Because I can’t take much more of these stress induced migraines!
After my last text to my sister she didn’t respond or turn up before the 3pm she had demanded so it felt like her little guilt trip story was just a load of BS really and just another day that she doesn’t turn up to and yet she still blames me for her not picking up the money.
She did however text me later that day:
Sister: ” (bank details) cheers. Make it for every 12th. Any other details you need ask me. I’ve borrowed money for today so when you sort it Monday you’ll have to put this month’s on Monday. It was for ebay and I don’t have enough money to clear it. I am not rich. Cheers” 5:10pm
(So let me get this straight – like Friday instead of meeting me at the time that was suitable you decided to go elsewhere? Yeah that makes total sense… And yet again it’s about the money… No response to anything else about what I had said in my previous text message…. Also what the actual ? You needed to pay off something on ebay that you didn’t pay for in advance with your own money – that’s not a bill! Rent, utilities something like that is a bill but a payment for something you bought of an auction is not a bill? and what was it for exactly? The car you bought of ebay? Because I thought you paid for that already…. I’m sorry but I’m not buying any of the crap that has been spouted the past few months, her attitude, comments, behaviour it’s just not on and needs to change. And haha I never said she was rich but still that’s what she defends? The money?So still just wow…)
Me: “You could have got the money yesterday and/or earlier today, you didn’t have to borrow it from someone else but okay. Standing order every 12th – but gwyg.” 6:33pm
(Took me some time do decide what to say because I have no idea what to say because I have said it all haven’t? And a lot nicer than I could have said it all so…. And that’s fine keeping it the 12th of every month but if you think I am gonna continue to fork out £85 every month after all this you are freaking delusional…. I will pay what I can whether that is have of £85 or less my terms now as I said in my other text it all changes as from that Friday which means that contract is utterly and completely voided and I am done being miss bend over and take it.)
Sister: “Gwyg?” 6:49pm
(Yep! GWYG = Get What You’re Given! Better look out for it on your statements because that will be the reference… Well – CVSGWYG –> Contract Voided So Get What You’re Given. work it out for yourself.)
Sister: “cool” 6:51pm
(Glad you think that’s cool, I’ll take that as a confirmation of agreement! Cheers as you say haha – I’m laughing because it’s just so pathetic and yet again dragged into dram by “family” and been accused as the one to blame for it! It all could have been avoided if you just turned up on time with! Simple, easy and just so damn hard for someone like my sister to understand and realise and I am done…)
We were so close and now there is this thing just because she helped me out when I needed it and I could have lived without – I mean if I knew this was going to happen like her attitude about he whole thing I would never have accepted although my brother did tell me it would be a bad idea so as I said before lesson learned.
Another family member who I was close with cut out of my life. (More on the others soon.) But my gosh I try not to cause arguments and confrontations and have learned to choose my battles carefully and wisely but this is something I will not back down on… I have put up with it for a year we could have had a review and made adjustments to hep us both out but you know what? Na. You know what I am like and you try to goad me knowing how I will react or did you think I would let you treat me this way just because as you put it “family/blood.” ( I hate that) Just because you are “family/Blood” does not give you the right to treat me or my children the way that you do. The blatant disrespect has gone too far and I’m done, I’m free -ish (still need to pay off the debt and I will as that is what I am like I wont stop paying just because I am angry because I keep my promises and that means something) and I will be feeling happy and positive once the drama of it all concludes and fades out of my life like the others.
I have ranted a lot and will probably be a few more rants in the future but it has given me the motivation to write again which is good. It is a healthy outlet I think at least some one or people read what I write unlike my own “family” who are not as supportive as a “family” should be But I have my kids, I have my friends (although both of them live far away from where I live so bit hard to see them as often as I would like) and I have myself respect. I will be changing my number though and definitely helps me decide on whether to move away or not when I finally move house which should be in 2 years (fingers crossed).
The headache is fading and the weekend is almost over?! Hardly had time to rest or get housework done due to various illness here thankfully little one is feeling loads better! Back to school, nursery and college runs tomorrow. Lets hope for a good day.
Thanks for reading!
x Emz x