After I published my post last night I had a throbbing headache and went to bed… Woke up this morning to my 3 year old daughter throwing up and my headache has turned into a painful migraine… It’s awful and upsetting because she doesn’t understand what’s happening, she is in pain and can’t explain how she feels properly and is just sobbing and yet there I was trying to comfort her, clean her and the bed and making sure she is throwing up in a bucket but she fights it which makes it a very challenging thing to do…
She is clean and calm and laying down resting, I roll over and check my phone and I have another two texts from my sister which was sent early hours….
Sister: “Please sort this out” 2:33am
Sister: “I’m now going to get charged if I don’t put the money in the bank by 3pm tomorrow” 2:34am
(Now she is trying to guilt trip me? Really? Like the rest of my family likes to do… Also who pays bills on a Saturday? And if it was the case where she needed the money and she had none and it needed to be paid today by 3pm then why not tell me this from the beginning before spouting the crap she was saying that wouldn’t make me want to respond to her? I dunno, who knows why she does what she does…)
I finally decide to message her because I do have the money and it was intended to be given to her but she didn’t show up and I said another time I also said I had things to do after she was an hour or so late… But then the things she was saying in her messages were just out of order in my opinion and it wasn’t going to encourage me to see her was it?
Me: “Wow… Just wow… First off you are so wrong. Second there is plenty for me to say to these messages but what’s the point when you don’t get it… Third, if you really want me to do the transfer through bank why haven’t you sent me any details to do that? Not to mention I know you can afford your bills without my money as you have loads of your own and not sure what bill you would have to pay on a Saturday…. And then you try to guilt trip me about you being charged…. Fourth, I told you I was free at that time, we waited, you didn’t show up even though you some how got to mums in turn leaving my kids to get ill due to waiting around for you in the cold, thanks for that and then I had things to do and was going to be busy and not at home which I said multiple times but you just kept hounding me and killed my phone and then when I see the spamming messages from you the crap you were spouting was shocking… So just wow… I have the money I always have the money unless I say otherwise and I always let you know what’s happening with the money but you take the piss and I’m done being disrespected. You voided the contract long ago but I always pay back what I owe and I made a promise from the beginning and that should have been enough but you threw it in my face and hung it over my head often and never once considered how struggling it would be for me to fork out that much money every month with my own bills and kids and even when you don’t show up… I have to stop being very accommodating and bending over backwards for people who don’t even trust, respect or support me. There’s more but what’s the point when you have accused me of such things and admitted that it’s all about the money to you. I have my children to see to. So get your money but as of yesterday it all changes.” 11:31am
(Okay so I ranted a bit more but once you get going ya know? I have never stood up for myself so much and I feel better for it!)
Once we start doing standing orders I will only pay what I can afford and when I can because this is ridiculous and for once it will be on my terms.
Little one is asleep finally and I have ran out of towels and wet wipes … Fun stuff … I have a major migraine… Stress induced I think and I have loads of housework to do which I am just not motivated for…
Thought’s anyone? Am I in the wrong? Am I mental? Or do we agree that we all get pushed to a breaking point and will switch at some point when they push it past breaking point? Makes it worse when they know what you are like and keep going right?
x Emz x